"I have tried my best to keep my marriage together. My son and I have been physically abuse before i married my husband. I wanted to leave but I stayed and we were married. He promise he would never hit me again. That promise he kept but then it was the emotional and mental abuse. Getting cursed out every now and then. Then theres the porn phone calls he would make running up our phone bill where it was cut off. Then theres the talking to other females on the phone then denying it later. He doesnt take full responsibility of having a family. I found myself working two jobs just to support myself and kids when he makes enough money to help. He is not at home. There is so much distant between us that I really dont feel anything for him anymore. I told him last year after finding a text on his phone where his talking to another female about doing sexual things to her that I had enough. We went to counseling and all sorts of promises was made. He doesnt make any initialtive to do anything on his own. If im not hounding him to change then he doesnt. So the new year came in and still no direct change. Yes he started paying bills but it was after i told him if it wasnt paid then everything will be taken or cut off. when he does come home he thinks i should go into the room and close up and just have sex with him. I have fast and prayed for two weeks. And I truly believe that this is my time to leave. During my fast I had a dream where im going out a window saying im coming God Im coming God. then i hear people saying why did she do that. I also had a dream about old stuff and new stuff. I ask for clarity and what i come up with is me leaving or closing the door to my past and opening the door to something new . My question is would God allow someone to actually leave a marriage after everything that one has endured. what if this was not the man that God had intended as my soul mate...

"The moment you say - I do before God this marriage becomes God's will. You need to forgive your husband. If separating will help you think more clearly then do so, but you must spend quality time with God. Seek God with your whole heart, for your life, your kids life and your husband. You do not want to derail your walk with God, so do not be quick to divorce. Remember Jesus suffered and He did no wrong. Yet, He said in Luke 23:34, Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do. Remember you are in a spiritual war and your husband is your partner. If your partner gets wounded you drag him to safety. You do not leave him for the enemy to destroy him. If you do not pray for your husband and get him out of this bondage - who will? Also examine yourself and look at areas of your life where you need to grow and change. There are many reason why Christians suffer, so endure and allow the Lord to show you why you are suffering." - Savi